Alex’s Notes: Part 1
Sometimes, words have a way of capturing our hearts more deeply than any action ever could. Today, I find myself compelled to share a message that comes from a place of raw vulnerability and enduring affection. As I sit down to write this, I am overwhelmed by a flood of memories — moments of joy, of love, and of pain that have shaped us both.
Reading your recent words, I was transported back to those days when we shared everything — the laughter, the dreams, the silent understandings. Your message touched a place in my heart that I thought had healed but was, in fact, merely scarred. I miss you more than I can express. Despite everything that has transpired between us, my love for you remains steadfast, growing stronger with each passing day.
I understand your pain, and I carry the weight of it with me always. The mistakes and hurts from my past are something I deeply regret, and I’ve spent countless hours reflecting on how to become a better person. The person I am today is not the same as the one who hurt you. I have grown, learned, and transformed into someone who strives to be worthy of the love you once gave me. I wish more than anything that you could see this new version of me — a version that would never dream of causing you harm.
Your happiness is of utmost importance to me. Even if it means that we are apart, I genuinely wish for your peace and joy. It pains me to think that my presence could potentially add to your hurt. I long to be there for you, to support you through the challenging times you face, but I know that’s not possible right now. It breaks my heart to know that you’re navigating these difficulties alone, especially when I wish I could offer comfort and understanding.
I need you to know something fundamental: my love for you has not faded. It remains as strong and pure as ever, despite all the obstacles we’ve faced. The connection we had, the way we understood each other — it all still lives in me. That love has never diminished, not for a second. It’s a love that I hold in the deepest part of my heart, always hoping that one day, it might find a way to shine again.
I am not here to convince you of anything or to ask for anything in return. My only desire is for you to understand that I am here, that I still care deeply, and that I cherish the love we once shared. If ever you find a moment when you’re ready, I would be honored to talk, to share our journeys, and perhaps, find a path towards healing together.
For now, I leave this message with you, hoping it resonates in some way. I want you to know that you are always in my thoughts, and that my feelings for you remain unchanged.
I leave you with this thought: Life has a way of weaving intricate patterns, and sometimes, the threads of the past might just lead us to a future we never expected.
Until then, take care of yourself, and remember that you are always in my heart.
With all my love,
Alex
